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Date Rape

In many cases of rape and sexual abuse, the predator is a man the woman is dating. This is commonly called Date Rape or Aquaintance Rape. These are the most common type of rape committed.

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Everyone being so strong and speaking out has inspired me to do the same. I am a rape victim, just like all of you. I was beaten and raped by two strangers when I was 16 years old, that was my first ever sexual encounter. Later on when I was 18, I was raped while drinking on a Marine base with a friend of mine. I was taken to another room and raped by two Marines. I developed symptoms of PTSD and after my second incident i've finally been diagnoised. I am in counseling and trying to heal, and truly want to thank all of you for inspiring me to speak out. God Bless you all, may you continue to stay strong. Take Care
~Raven~
by Ravenon 22 Nov 2004

When I was 14 I went to bed and the next thing I know my sister was waking me up. What had happened was that my sister woke up and my cousin was out side our door and there was no reason for him to be there because the bath room was at the other end of the hall, by the front room where he was sleeping. Anyway my sister woke up and my pants were unbuttend and unzipped. I don't know if anything happend because I'm a very hard sleeper, but that's my story thanks for reading.
by dreamer girlon 21 Nov 2004

I came by this site just now on TheDent. I had to visit. This is the first site of this type that I have come to and the first time I have ever really spoken about what happened. I was sixteen when I was raped at a party by someone who had been a friend of mine. I was a virgin. I spoke of it to only three people. My best friend at the time ended up having a breakdown and had her mom call my parents. I ended up telling them through tears what had happened. The next day I decided to go to the police with my mom. It has been over a year and my trial has not yet begun.
Going to the police was the best and worst decision I ever made. I spoke out, and that in itself gave me strength. But this was not taken seriously. Because I drank that night they assumed I was some stupid drunk girl who had it coming. No investigation was ever done and I am sure I will lose this trial.
My heart goes out to every girl who is afraid to say anything. To every person who is too afraid to do the right thing. It's hard and it doesn't always go the way you plan. But speaking out against this kind of violence is important. Reporting what happened to you is important. We cannot stand silently while this happens to more and more people. Since I reported my rape, this person has raped at least two other girls who refuse to come forward. And if nothing is done, he will keep doing this.
Since I reported this crime I have tried to do everything I can to speak out. I have joined my college campus awareness group and participated in my first "Take Back The Night Walk". Every little bit helps. Slowly, I am getting to a point where I am not afraid to say what happened.
I am NOT a victim.
I refuse to let myself be a victim.
I am a SURVIVOR.
There is a vast difference.
by Torion 18 Nov 2004

A friend gave me this site. I have a long and depressing story I suppose. I was sexually molested as a child. At the age of 5 till 6 1/2 I was forced to give oral,touch him, and he touched me. Then at the age of 14 I was staying over at a friends house. Her brother Johnny was staying for the summer. he followed me around the whole day, taunting me "I love you, if u love me u'll fuck me"....he even went to the extent to shove his hands down my pants a couple times. I shoved him away but he just kept coming back. My friend and I alone in the house with him I went upstairs to get something from my bag. I turned around and he was standing there smiling. I remember thinking "run dumbass" but I froze. He grabbed me and threw my down, I tryed to get up but he was very muscular. Short but very strong. I fought for like 10 min, he smacked me hard, enough to almost knock me out...it stunned me untill he ripped my jeans off. I remember looking down and starting to get up. He pinned me...holding my hands with one hand and using his other hand to pry my legs open..once he was between them he started touching me and when i felt him there...i stared out the window till it was over. When he was done he pulled out...it was everywhere...blood ran down my legs (I was a virgin)..he said two things "If ur pregnant it isnt mine" and "clean ur mess up or I'll tell everyone how big a slut u are"...i clean the sheets up and zoned out the rest of the day. The next day my friend wanted to talk so we went for a walk. The woods behind thier house was peaceful, I wanted to tell her but I was so scared. Then we heard something behind us. He came up and i started backing up. He told her to go back to the house, we wanted to be alone. I looked at her...i couldnt speak.I shook my head no but she went cause she was scared of him too. He started after me..I ran screaming...NO NO DONT PLEASE DONT. Crying so hard I couldnt see, I tripped and when i started to get up he tackled me. Pinning me down I felt so helpless I just screamed NOOOO NOOOO STOP. He covered my mouth and I gave up. I just went limp and cryed. He said " U want it again or u would have went home"( i stayed the night even after the first time) I blamed myself for years. He just walked off after he was done...giving me this look i can see to this day. I layed there, cold but numb for hours...i remeber my friend touching my soulder and jolting into relity..i was leaned against a tree talking to myself.(she said, i cant remember) She says i didnt say anything as we walked back...i dont even remember getting dressed. He sat across from me at the dinner table that night, winking at me. Her other brothers bothered me from that day on i had to fight. Ive fought since i was 5.
by Krison 18 Nov 2004

I am trying to deal with what happened after blocking it out. I'm 17 now, 2 years ago I made a new friend 'Tony' he was someone I would talk to about all my problems. I trusted him. He started flirting with me, being suggestive, saying how he'd like to take our friendship further. I just thought this was banter and he didn't mean it. I was in the school library doing research for cookery, I remember he came and knelt down beside me, out of the way where nobody could see and started groping me. He kept forcing his hands to my privates all the while telling me that I should stop being a tease and that I would like it. I was frozen with fear and trying to stop myself from being sick. I was so scared of him and what he'd do. He grabbed my hand and tried to shove it in his pants. The librarian came over to where we were and he stopped. She pretended she didn't see anything while I was trying hard not to cry. He left me alone after that until now. He's trying to make us be friends, telling me that I asked for it, nothing happened and next time we'd 'finish it properly' Its torture to me I don't know what to do. I know my friends won't believe me. He is charming and very clever, the teachers love him. I'm stuck I shy away from anything sexual, I go cold and start shaking. I'm terrified he will come near me again. If you have any suggestions please tell me.
Natalie
by Natalieon 18 Nov 2004

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