I was in a friend’s car. We were going to a store when he stopped in am empty parking lot. I said “what are we doing here?” And he said “we should get to know each other better.” I said “No.” Then he hit me and threw me in the back seat of the car and told that if I screamed he would kill me. I was so scared. Then he took my shirt off and touched me. He took my pants off and raped me for what seemed like forever, but it was only 2 or 3 hours and my body, I don’t know how, but it didn’t agree with what I was saying. I was saying no.
by Angelaon 10 Apr 2005
I am 55 years old.
I was molested by my Uncle from the age of 5 untill ???
I was even terrified through my teens, and because of this I spent most of my life alone wandering 118 acres whenever I could escape. IT still haunts me every day. Because of him I was abused numerous times by other people. I never had any children, and never married until 12 years ago. And today I am fighting OCPD, Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD, Agoraphobia, Disassociation Disorder, Mirror Self-Misidentification Disorder, and a couple of other things. Remember: just because it is "over" doesn't mean it will disappear. Please, if you have the chance to get and stay in therapy, DO IT!
by Donna on 10 Apr 2005
When I was 14, I was raped by a "friend" of mine. He and a friend of his came over to my house after school. My parents were still at work so I was home alone. I thought that since he was a friend of mine I was safe. He forced me into my bedroom and locked the door. His friend was the "look out" guy in case someone came home. I was forced to have sex with him on the floor of my own room. He was a lot bigger and stronger than me. I tried to push him off of me, but every time I did, he held me down even tighter. I screamed for his friend to help me, but he never came. Then my "friend" would put his hand over my mouth so I wouldn't make any noise. After this agonizing horror was over, he kissed me on the cheek and told me that if I told anyone he would be back for more. For the rest of my high school years, this guy would torment me at school by leaving obscene notes in my locker, brushing by me in the halls, and always reminding me that I better not tell anyone. For years, I blamed myself for letting him in the house. That was 16 years ago and the only person I've ever told is my husband. It's been difficult carrying around so much weight for so many years. Only by the grace of Christ, I've been able to deal with this better and more constructively. God has given me hope and more peace about that tragic event. It helps, also, to know that I'm not alone in this struggle and so many innocent souls have been violated in this manner. There's hope out there. God is there to listen and help if you'll ask Him. Sites like this are a comfort as well. Sharing is good therapy. Thank you for this site.
by Melon 9 Apr 2005
Today my 10 year old daughter came to me and told me that her cousin (my nephew) tried to kiss her. My daughter, being as smart as she is, told him to stop. She immediately told me. Thank God that it did not go any further. I have always taught my daughters to know right from wrong and to be able to stick up for themselves.
This incident, though, brought back memories of my brother molesting me. I was fifteen. I really don't want to get into details at this moment because this is a new emotion that I have to deal with. I feel each and everyone of your pain. I have to say that you are all brave and wonderful people. If anybody has any suggestions for counseling or somebody to call, please let me know.
by Deborahon 8 Apr 2005
I am very glad I came across this site. I am 13 turning 14 in June.
About 3/4 through last year I was on detention with this 'bad guy' at our school. This appealed to me. We talked and I got his email address and we would talk on msn messenger. During our second conversation on msn, he asked me if I wore g-strings and we got into quite a personally deep conversation about each other, until finally he asked me if I wanted to go have 'fun' with him (sexual fun). I agreed because I liked him and I wanted to please him. I have always been a people pleaser.
We both agreed to skip the last two classes of school and go over to the toilets in the hall to go have our fun. I was a little inclined to go because all my friends had told me he was a user and I knew this but I just wanted to feel loved, even if it was lustful from the other person.
After lunch we both walked over to the hall, and into the toilets. We started kissing and feeling each other and I liked it very much even though I had never done any thing like it before. Then he pulled out a condom and asked me to put it on him and then I knew I had gotten myself into trouble. I said no and tried to leave. But he got angry and asked me again. When I refused again he grabbed me and forced me to give him oral sex. Then he forced me to put the condom on him. He sat on one of the toilets and forced me to have sex with him. It was very painful as I had never had sex before and I was very scared. I was too scared of him to try to get away and in so much pain that I started crying. I got the courage to try and get away from him once but he grabbed me back and raped me again.
I haven’t reported this to any one. I have told my current boyfriend who I love very much and my closest friends.
I will never be the same again after this experience, especially since I see him at school every school. About two weeks ago he apologized for what he did.
by Amyon 8 Apr 2005
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