Hi. when I was in the 4th grade one of my friends assaulted me and then it seemed like everywhere I went people did that to me all the time. Now I am 17 with a boyfriend but I have also gotten assaulted more then one time and raped more then one time and my boyfriend doesn't seem to care about that at all. He says that he won't do that to me but he is always wanting me to do things to him.
I try and tell him all the time that I'm not going to do things that he wants me to do to him because I'm not ready for that yet.
by Sommer Tippett on 11 Jan 2006
I am a survivor
I am a strong survivor
Your violence will not put me down
I am the wind of a cold, cold hurricane
I am the fangs of a bearing tiger
I am a survivor,
Your violence will not put me down
Darkness will not follow me
I spread light into every room
Evil will not condem me
I am a goddess of heaven
I Speak the tongues of my women
I share the same thoughts of my friends
I can relate to their stories
I spread my words
No matter how many rapes
How many killings
How many abused children,
I call out to them and they are strong
I am a proud survivor
I am a true survivor
I am a pained survivor
I AM A WOMAN
Rape is NEVER your fault
by Genesison 11 Jan 2006
I was raped by my senior a few days ago. It was during a New Year Countdown Party. We were having an outing at a chalet booked by him and some of my other seniors. All of us were having loads of fun over there. Then,as it gets later and later, more and more people were going home after midnight. Finally, my senior and I were the only ones left in the chalet.
He offered me alcohol and because he's my senior, I trusted him and had some. I was wrong. I reckon he might have drugged the bottle of alcohol or I was drunk as the last thing I remember was drinking and having fun. Then I felt sleepy and I think I was asleep deeply.
The next morning,I was so shocked to find myself naked on the bed in the chalet,and there was a person next to me. It was my senior. And he was naked too It was only then I realized I've been such a fool! He was hugging me tightly and I tried to let go of him. But I felt an acute pain "down there" and did not have to strength to push him away. He woke up and asked for more sex. I was so scared.I refused to give in and he raped me again. I felt so dirty. I was so upset.
by D.on 7 Jan 2006
I was 15 when it happened. My parents were divorced, have been for a while. I lived with my dad for 14 years. It was great. I love my dad so much. I don't know why I moved out. Well I moved in with my mom for a while. Then decided after six months after living there that life was much better with my dad. So I came back to the same ol little town that I was from. I started to hang out with a bunch of people that were known for partying every weekend. But in high school that was the "cool" thing to do. I had gone to a party one night with "so-called" friends. I began to drink alot of alcohol. It was a very bad decision. I gave into peer pressure. It was hard to say no. I wanted to fit in more then ever. Well I got so intoxicated that I did not know what was going on. Everything was a big blur. This guy that I had known for quite some time took me into a room. (This I remember.) I don't remember anything else after that. I had passed out. The next morning I woke up in a strange bed half dressed. I know what had happened. Monday going back to school was hell. Rumors swirled. As they do in small towns. I didn't not tell anyone what had really happened. Especially my dad. I knew how disappointed he would be. I soon had to tell him because I became pregnant. I did not tell anyone else including this guy. I was only 15 and still a virgin. I don't even remember my first time. I told my dad of course and yes he was pretty angry and disappointed at the fact. Living in a small town rumors and news get around pretty fast. So my dad made the ultimate decision that I should get an abortion. It's not something I am proud of. I wish I could remember my first time, and know what if is to feel a baby in my arms. I know that my baby is in the arms for God now. I regret everything I did. I should have not gone to that party and drank so much. I blame myself for this one. I have turned my life around though. I am now 22 living with my boyfriend of 3 years. I found someone to talk to about this and does not judge me.
I hope this story helps young girls. Don't give into that peer pressure. It has it's consequences. Don't do things that you know are wrong just to fit in. Stand by your morals. Just know that it's always best to talk about events that happen in life.
by Tiffany on 6 Jan 2006
I was 9 years old. I was over my friend's house when her mom said that I needed to go home. My friend's brother arrived and offered to take me home. In the car he started to say that I was pretty and then said that we should get some ice cream, but he pulled over to a deserted place instead and started to touch me. I was crying and he told me to shut up. He then started moaning and saying "don't worry it's okay." He then said I love you, kissed me on the forehead, and smirked. I just wanted to go home. He dropped me off and I ran inside.
My mom asked if I had a good time. I just ran into my room and shut the door. I came back out 3 hours later for dinner. I didn't go over my friend's house ever again. She kept asking me to come over, but I didn't want to and so we got into a fight and stopped talking. We started to fade apart when we were 11. I never saw her anymore. Then one day I saw her brother and he turned and looked at me. I swear he smirked, but he just looked at me like I was a freak for staring, and turned away. HE DIDN"T EVEN REMEMBER ME!!! He didn't know what he had done. It has caused me to be shy and timid around guys and I've never had a boyfriend. Sometimes I still have flashbacks.
It has been 8 years since what happened. I told some of my close friends, and they have been there for me. I am doing great, and I'm lucky to not have been so messed up by this. I hope that sexual abuse and rape will stop, but there are so many women out there, and guys too, who have been sexually abused. Stay strong! You have all been through so much, I know you can get better! Be strong!
by jo on 4 Jan 2006
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