For the past two years I've been fighting away my ex boyfriend and his family. At first our relationship was amazing, he made me feel like I was the most special person the Earth had ever seen. We'd been dating for a few weeks, and I often had a hard time sleeping. I hadn't slept in 4 days, at all, but I'd finally reached a point of exhaustion. He came over and checked on me, he was so sweet. I told him though, that I was tired and he should probably leave so he didn't have to watch me sleep. He kissed me goodbye, I got in my bed and when I woke up he was kissing me, most of my clothing was gone, I was confused, I didn't understand. I told him no, to stop, he was hurting me. We wrestled, I fought. But he just kept hitting me, till I couldn't fight anymore. I broke up with him the next day. He started harassing me, and sending members of his family after me, several nearly did, or did rape me. It's been terrible. But now they're all gone to prison or etc, and it's over. I've survived right? At the hospital they told me my nightmare was over. Clearly they don't sleep either.
by Forgotten on 2 Jun 2005
I was raped when I was 18, 3 years ago. My best friend and I had gone to a party. There were some guys there that we knew for a long time. Still to this day, Iím confused at what really happened and why? I remember getting sick, puking in the bathroom. I was not the person with a great tolerance for alcohol. But, I do know that it happened way too fast like I was drugged. I had blacked out in the bathroom hugging the toilet. And when I awoke, I was lying down on a bed and he was taking off my shoes and pants. I had passed out again, and I didnít wake up till the next morning when I found myself naked in the bed and him the same way. I was confused, I had asked my friend the next day what had happened. She told me that he had carried me from the bathroom and into the bedroom. She even admitted that she went to check on me and saw that he was taking advantage of me and she didnít do anything about it. We are no longer friends because of it. I was a virgin at the time and this guy I had known for 7 years did this to me. It took me 8 days to tell anyone because I was in shock. I took him to court as my friend being the witness. Because I didnít even know what had happened after the first hour I was at the party, he was convicted and got put in jail. That was a big healing process for me. But still this day I have issues, a lack of trust. I canít personally get close to any of my friends, because of the betrayal I encountered from my friend at the time. I fear any sexual intimacy from any guy. I still have my up and down days and Iím still healing. It takes time.
by kelcieon 1 Jun 2005
Here goes, when I was 15 (I am 18 now) I was sitting on my bedroom floor. I was watching TV and doing my homework. I heard a knock on my bedroom door. It was my uncle. He asked me if I knew where my parents were. I told him that they would be home from work in a couple of hours. He asked if he could wait and I saw no harm, since he was my uncle. I loved him very much.
Then he said that he wanted to watch TV with me, I had a VCR in my room and he had brought a videotape with him. He put it into the VCR and I was disgusted. I told him that I thought that he should leave, but he didnít. He told me that he was going to make me feel good all over.
I developed at an early age so I had my period and good size breasts. He came over and made me sit on his lap. I was scared and I couldnít move. So he grabbed me and put me on his lap. He put his hands up my shirt and undid my bra. Then he took off my bra and my shirt and held me down on my bed. He sucked on my breasts and pulled them hard.
I told him to stop and I said that it hurt. But he didnít. Then he took off my jeans. He told me that he liked the thong that I was wearing. He put me over his lap and told me that I was a bad girl. He started slapping me. I was crying and I didnít know what to do. Then he tied my arms to my headboard with one of my scarves.
He took off his pants and rubbed my vagina with his hand. It hurt. Then he started performing oral sex on me. I kept telling him that he was hurting me and I kept yelling at him to stop. But he didnít.
He put his fingers into me so that I screamed in pain. Then the worst part. He inserted his penis into my vagina. This went on for about a half hour.
He told me that he would be right back. He came back with a vibrator and a wooden spoon. He flipped me over and started hitting my buttocks with the spoon. Then he inserted the vibrator into my vagina. He turned it on and started performing anal sex at the same time. I cried and he kept doing it for 2 hours. I cried the entire time and I still donít know what to make of it. To this day I never told anyone.....
Thank you for listening.
by Ashamed on 31 May 2005
I am 12 years old but I have not been a child for 2 years. My brother used to play wrestling with me. He said that the wrestling was different and I had to take my clothes off or we couldnít play, so loving my brother I took off my clothes. My parents were out for a couple of hours so they didnít know. He took me to his room and told me to lie on his bed. I did as he said and then he suddenly got on top of me and said "youíre going to get what you deserve" I asked him what he meant and he said that mom and dad always loved me best so he was going to punish me. I told him that was not true he slapped me in the face, he said shut up or I will slap you harder. All I felt was immense pain as he slammed into me and broke me. He went in and out for what seemed like forever. He then got up, I thought it was over but I was wrong. He turned me over and then he raped me anally. I cried and after about half an hour he stopped turned me back over told me he would kill me if I told anyone. Then he gave me a light kiss on my mouth and left me there. He then abused me whenever he had the chance but I plucked up all my courage and told my mom who told my dad who kicked him out of the house and I have not seen him since
Thanks for listening, it felt good to tell other people.
by **************** on 30 May 2005
My abuse began when I was probably about 2 years old and ended when I was about 10. I am almost 20 now. My abusers were my mother's three brothers, her uncle, and my older cousin. They violated my body and it feels like they ruined my spirit. I grew up feeling disgusting and dirty, and I often still do. I want to feel clean again, but I don't know how.
by J.on 29 May 2005
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