When I was 13 years old, my brother-in-law molested me while I babysat his son. This went on for 2 months. I donít know why I kept going back, except for the fact that he threatened to kill me if I didnít, or if I told. One day he pushed me over the bathtub, and raped me. The pain was unbearable. I never told till this year. I am married with 2 small kids, and my husband is a wonderful and caring man. I still have flashbacks while making love with my husband, and he has to stop sometimes because I canít go on. No one believes me, except my husband and therapist. Thank you for listening.
by still hurting on 14 Jul 2005
It all started when I was 8 years old. I thought nothing of it. I thought we were the perfect family, both parents, nice cloths, and a beautiful house, but I was wrong. My dad started first with watching me taking a bath, then watching me getting dress, and then touching me, until I turned 16 and he found out his only little girl was not a virgin anymore. I remember that night like it was yesterday. After that I knew I had to do something, even if I was scared because my mother didnít believe me, and she still doesnít.I am proud of standing up, and saying something. I know itís hard, but if I can do it, you can too. Iím 23 years old now, and I have a 2year old daughter. I have never forgotten what has happened, and I know I never will.
by nicole on 13 Jul 2005
I was raped. I thought I wanted it. I was set up on a blind date. My friend told me he had a car, and he wanted to go out. I didn't tell anyone. He picked me up. He had gin & coke- and he wanted me to drink it. I was afraid to say no, so I drank it. I wanted to be cool. He took me to Mighty Taco. He paid for me, and I felt so special. We continued to drive around. I started feeling sick, so he pulled over while I threw up. I was so embarrassed I felt that passing cars were snickering at me. He told me he was sorry, and he loved me. When I got back in the car, he kissed me. Maybe he really did love me. He felt my breast. We continued to drive around. He asked me if I wanted to go to a motel. I said sure. Great, everyone else is doing it, why not me? I remember the little rose wallpaper, the T.V. deadbolt to the wall. He laid me down on the bed. He took off my sneakers, and my pants halfway. He put his hand inside me. I told him no and to stop. This wasnít how I thought it would be. He continued to touch inside me, and I remember staring at the wall, looking at the red roses on the wall. I stared off as he plunged his hands harder into me. Then I felt something in my mouth, and he told me to [perform oral s*x]. I don't think I was in my body as I'm not now, I'm here but not here. Then he inserted his penis into me. I told him, ďNo stop it that hurts. Get off of me.Ē I wanted to kick him, but I didn't want to hurt him. It was my fault. I went with him. My mom told me that it was over, and to go wash myself. Crisis Services told me they could do nothing if I didn't want to press charges. They hung up on me. I cried. I learned he might have had crabs, so I went to the doc's. I had to get HIV testing done. My counselor at school didn't want to talk to me about it. It was over. I never knew his name.
Looking back he wasnít going to take no for an answer. He got a phone call while inside me, he spoke Spanish, so to this day I still don't know what he said. I wish I'd known his name. I'll never forget his face,
by Nikkion 13 Jul 2005
When I was 10 years old, I was molested for a year by a boy that baby-sat me. Now I am in a rehab and have very severe suicidal problems.
by tiffany on 12 Jul 2005
At 12, my father molested me. It left me with feelings all through life of shame, disgust, anger, and rebellion against him and all men! I believe SHAME has been for me the most difficult obstacle to overcome in life! Wondering how someone like that could have those ideas, those thoughts, those feeling for a young child!
As a married woman, I experienced rape once in my marriage. That experience left me bitter and angry as well. No one deserves to ever be raped or sexually molested in life!
As a grown woman, I experienced rape once, while receiving a ride home from a friend of my cousin.
I never told my cousin about it, because I knew he would have retaliated against this man. I did not want to cause any problems in life for my male cousin.
I have learned over the years...as a victim or rape or molestation...I am not the guilty one. They are the ones with the problems.
I am sure rape and molestation happen every day to hundreds of children (both boys and girls) and grown women. It is a daily reality that must be faced head-on, addressed public ally nationwide, and dealt with as a severe epidemic amongst our American society.
The best advice I can tell past, present, and future victims is this: Do not stay silent about what is taking place or is at the time happening to you. Be very verbal to the offender. Face-to-face. Tell them that what they are about to do or have done before is very Wrong/ Tell them that they need Help. Tell them that you will not allow it to happen to you and you Will report them/
If you fear for your life or safety, do not hesitate to seek out shelter or safety from rape hotlines, friends, or law enforcement.
Do not be a SILENT VICTIM!
Never feel guilty for Their Actions.
There is help out their for the victims.
There is healing, hope, and bright future for the unfortunate victims...time and counseling will heal the wounded spirit.
Peace to all.
by Wounded in spiriton 12 Jul 2005
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