From the age of 5, I was sexualy abused by my father. I had told my mum several times and she would ask him about it and he would deny it like always. Mum and dad ended up seperating my dad was a very controling, manipulative man so I remaned living at his house. The abuse was still an occurance but because my mum was abused as a child, she had taught me that it was wrong if someone touches you in your private spots and as I got older I realised that he didnt have the power, I DID. So one nght I went into his room while he was asleep and I got into bed with him. I was in denial that he would do anything to me but I wanted to catch him out. He started touching me, it was discusting. I got up and went in my own room the next.
I thaught this is it, am I going to let him do this to me again? NO, so I rang him he was at work and I said "you touched me last night" he was speachless. I said "I am leaving and there is nothing you can do about it" I thaught he would yell at me, he didnt. He started crying he said "no dont leave im sorry if I have hurt you" that was it for me. I couldnt take this anymore, I told my mum she was distrort she said sorry about 10 times. I dont blame her. Then my mum and I told the family they didnt belive us. That gave my mum doubt on if it was true or not. I ended up moving out of my mums and was living at a friends. He gained all the control back a couple of weeks after I got a phone call of my mum telling me she didnt belive me. I was all on my own 15 years old so I turned to drugs and alcohol untill I couldnt do it anymore so I confronted my mum told her the story again streight away she got us a house to live in the next couple of weeks. I went to the police I wanted to get him REVENGE was all I could think about I was taking him to court. Then befor the last court hearing there was a knock at the door, it was the police informing us that he had comite suiside. Everything came tumboling down, at first I was upset but after that I thought good I will never have to face him again. It was just my mum, brother and little sister... I am now 17 and I am back at school I have had a boyfriend for 2 years and I know I am going to live happily ever after......because he can't hurt me anymore
by rebecca parkeron 4 Aug 2004
I am 14. This is going to sound strange...but I have memories of being abused, and I am not sure if they are real. I freakout when my boyfriend touches me (even a hug scares me), and I am really insecure about relationships. I remember seeing my mother with another man when I was six, and I was expected to keep this is a secret. I was expected to live with a secret that I didn't even understand.
To cut a long story short I:
- think i have been emotionally abused (I am not sure if it is classified as abuse)
- remember being touched by my father
- have been exposed to both of my parents being unfaithful and abuseful towards eachother
Feel free to contact me-
by Forever Wonderingon 3 Aug 2004
Not sure how to start...... I've blocked out so many memories of my childhood....
My sisters and I were molested by my uncle... I was the youngest of 3 but in the seventies you didn't talk of such things... My mother was no help. We all know now she knew then as she was having an affair with him and had been for years. For me I'm not sure when it started but it ended when I was 13. Like I said I have few memories but what I can remeber makes me sick. My sisters and I used to cry because our mother used to..."pimp" I guess would be the right word for it, when she needed money or clothes or anything else she wanted and he would give it to her.
This was my fathers only brother. We never told my father because of his heart condition, he would have killed my uncle. I do know that because I was a "daddys girl". My aunt had no clue either, she was always at work when he and my mother would meet and he would do those things to my sisters and I. My oldest sister took the brunt of his badness. She would go to protect me and my other sister, but when she got to her teens it was mostly me he molested.
I myself can't seem to make marriages work. I'm only 34 and have been married 3 times.... have been on 3 different kinds of anti depressants, but still seem to function as close to normal as I can. My oldest sister too has came a long way. She battles bulimia and drinking and has flashbacks. My middle sister has been through 2 abusive marriages has 4 children, 2 of which live with her, 1 with my oldest sister and 1 lives with her father in Mitchigan (my sister hasn't saw her since she was 2)and that was 9 years ago.
I wonder if he knew how his abuse would have effected us or if he even cared!!!!!
My uncle has since passed away and I have made peace with that demon. I could even morn his passing but I can't and will never understand why he ruined my childhood and why I can'r remeber half of it because I choose not to face and remeber what he did to me.
Thanks to all, good luck and feel free to email me if you want to talk.....
by Wandaon 30 Jul 2004
When I was small don't recall the exact year, I was molest by my brother it happen when I was asleep I dont know if I was dreaming it seems as if my sisters knew because when I woke up the were looking at me.
I hate myself I am about to marry I told my fiancee but he is no support he constantly tell me about it right now I am so fed up of him barking on me as if I dont mean much to him
I will ********** I know, sorry but I am not a survivor, no I am not. To all of u people I know the pain that u r felling, I am too every single be strong and I love u all
by Sand on 27 Jul 2004
I posted this before my story but I changed my email address.
Its hard for me to talk about this but I was sexually assaulted at work by a coworker We were doing rounds and checking on patients when he got me in the room alone and touched my chest then he shoved his arm down my pants and pushed his fingers in me then he made me get up on the sink and forced my legs apart and pushed his fingers in again I was afraid to fight him for fear he would hurt me even worse. I tried to get away and he grabbed my arm then he tried to make me perform oral sex on him. I have nightmares every night of it happening I remember being on top of the sink when he was inside of me and I remember trying to put it out of mind what was happening and wishing someone would walk in and help me nobody did. Im still trying to get over it I get depressed I want to harm myself sometimes I have awful flashbacks. Im able to type it but unable to talk about it verbally
by Lindaon 27 Jul 2004
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