My step-father raped me repeatedly for the past 6 years. E-mail me anytime

My story of survivor is I’m sure very common. It started back when I was just eleven-years-old, my mom started dating the guy she called her 2nd truelove the only problem was that it wasn’t her that he really wanted sexually- -it was me. The first time I was made to realize that was the 1st night that he moved in with my mom, my younger brother, and me; her truelove waited until my younger brother and her went to sleep. He then made his way into my bedroom, where he forcibly dishonored and sodomizd me for three hours straight with me lying facedown on my bed, when he had finished he looked down at me to declare,
“Do yourself a favor, and keep this little f*ck moment to yourself! Besides, you weren’t that great anyway.”
I felt so demoralized that I felt like crawling underneath my bed.

Over the next eight years, there were numerous beatings for both my younger brother and me over what I’d call trivial occurrences and yes, the sexual abuse continued as well. The last time that my former stepfather violated me, he did so the day after my 18th birthday party, having had my best friend sleep over we spent the next morning playing in the swimming pool...when she left to go home, I thought that my mom was still at home so when I went to change out of my bikini, I mistakenly left the door to the changing room unlocked. The next thing that I knew my mom’s boyfriend, who she’d married by this time; had caught me by surprise and roughly violated me. What made it even worst was that my little brother had just gotten through changing out of his swim trunks, so I am almost certain that he heard me being taken advantage of that day–even though he denies it. Shortly after that, I found out that I was pregnant, right then and there I made up my mind to speak out against the abuse that I was living with.
I'm now nineteen-years-old living in another town, waiting to give birth to my unborn daughter. My former stepfather is now serving a ten year prison sentence for raping me, I’ve limited contact with my mom and brother I’m also in counseling for depression after attempting to commit suicide twice.

I was raped at 14. It changed me, it destroyed my self confidence so much that I now feel ugly and guilty nearly all the time. I ran away from home one day and met these men at the trocadero in west end they befriended me or should I say took advantage of my naivety and one of them took me back to his house over the next 3 weeks he claimed to be my boyfriend but would leave me to starve. I was anorexic when I went home, five in a half stone to be exact and caked in make up to cover the shame and confusion I felt after what him and his friends did to me. They made me feel like I wanted it but I know how painful it was. I still bleed now if I have intercourse. I ran away a second time and that was horrendous. I was raped well over 30 times in six weeks that is so hard to accept. It makes me bow my head in shame even though I know I was only a child. I even went into prostitution because I hated myself so much. I thought it was all I deserved. I now know differently, I have stopped self harming and prostitution and realized my self worth although I am underweight and suffering from ptsd I know that eventually we will all heal and close the chapter on our ordeals. Please email me and feel free to discuss anything. Better out than in

My first recollections of being raped by my first cousin happened when I was just thirteen-years-old and he was eighteen-years-old. I used to think he was so cool growing up, then one night while I was spending the night with my Aunt Barbara & Uncle James(his parents) he walked in on me while I was taking a shower. At first I didn’t know he was in the bathroom but then he pulled back the curtain a little bit and started making obscene suggestions to me. I then got out of the shower with the intentions of calling my Aunt Barbara in there. The next thing that I knew, I was being held down over the toilet while entered me from behind. When he was through with me, he just smiled down at me saying,
"Don't bother telling on me to my mom, I'll just tell her the truth--that you threw yourself at me! She already knows that you're infatuated with me."
By far, that wasn’t the only or last time that my cousin who’ll refer to as “Benjamin” forced himself on me–no, in fact, the last time that he had me {which I truly do believe was the day that I conceived the child that I am now carrying} he had me in his bedroom while the rest of our family was out in the yard shooting fireworks. So, you might be wondering why I didn't scream out for help...I did cry out but by the time my Aunt Barbara & Uncle James had came in and confronted him he was already done with me.

I dont know where to start, and I dont know if my story fits in here. But here goes.
My uncle moved in with us when i was 9. He was only here for a week the first time it happened. He shared a room with me and he came in and started playing with my hair, telling me how much he loved me and how pretty he was. He stunk and I can still hear his voice. It still makes me feel sick. Anyway he made me give him oral sex and then he enetered me. I've never felt any phsyical pain like that, and I can still feel it today. He used to do that nearly every night until he left when I was 11. My parents knew and let it happen. I hate them, I hate him, and I hate myself. I'm tryingso hard to let go and move on, but its just so hard. I dont think I'll ever get through..
I told my best friend and I'm going to court next year. I dont feel strong enough, and no one seems to understand.. I'm 16 now and feel like I've missed out on so much feeling like this.
Please, feel free to email me and get in touch.. I could do with it to
Take care to everyone out there, and stay strong.. xxx

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